Es waren wieder mal bewegende, lehrreiche Wochen. Wochen, die mich an jedem einzelnen Tag ein Stück deutlicher auf die Erkentnisse hinweisen wollten: „Sehe an, nehme an, lasse zu, WAS IST“.

Ich habe sehr lange dagegen angekämpft, dieses Wort überhaupt in den Mund zu nehmen. Die Tatsache selbst, dass es in mir – 7 Monate nach dem alles verändernden Frühlingsmorgen, an dem mein Zerbrechen und Erwachen begann, – noch immer Unbehagen auslöst, den Satz auszusprechen: „Ich hatte / habe einen Burnout“, könnte noch immer Bände sprechen. … Mehr Burnout Diaries

The year I first thought I „hardly survived“ – turns out to be the most precious gift I ever recieved ❤ Here we go again, at the end of another year in life: indulging in reflections, processing & assorting the experiences, learnings, realizations we were lucky enough to be given. This year was the most … Mehr Learning to praise the losses – the truth awaits underneath the rubble

Facing „what is“ is always the right place to start…  I thought I already have a profound understanding of my past, my family history, my challanges. I might as well have – at least in my own head. I really did believe, I know enough to have a „sealed“ concept of why I became … Mehr Diagnoses do matter.

On the painful journey to finding your identity as a replacement child. I am a replacement child. I was born to fill a void my sister left in the hearts of my parents & my family. Maybe not intentionally, not with the outspoken wish of my parents to become one. But I did so anyways … Mehr Who am I?

„If you are a giver and you have a big heart, to be truly happy in life, you must learn when to let go. Naturally, you’re going to care when you shouldn’t, you’re going to stay longer than you should, and you’re going to give when you have nothing. Know when to stop and let … Mehr No, thanks.

Well, you really always do. You can try to suppress it, deny it, cover it up, compensate or numb it – so many ways to go. But deep down in your core, you do know it. And when the time comes & you can allow yourself to actually feel it: you will undeniably know your … Mehr You always know…

My dear „in between“. We’re not done with each other for the time being: you keep popping up in my mind, you keep entering my dreams, giving me hints on what & where to look for. I knew I will (painfully love & ) enjoy this ride from that very moment it became clear to … Mehr In between – part two.

Let’s cut to the chase this time: right now I really don’t like being there. In that transformative, ever-necessary, powerful – but sometimes simply paralyzing, tiring, scaring phase every change holds in our lives: somewhere in between… I cherish change. I advocate change. I fight for change. I am change. But right now, I really … Mehr In between.